Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
untitled.
ALHAMDULILLAH. prase to The Almighty Allah SWT for:
1. showing me how much He cares by sending me someone who really cares about me. :)
2. open up her heart to get back to the right path.
despite this awful, rough two weeks im facing, i know later at night before i close my eyes to sleep there's always someone who wouldn't mind listening to me being cranky and all. the best part is, he doesn't mind when im talking weird stuff. he would join instead. hehe.
and then there's this emotionally-strained drama + conflicts + coldwar between me and her. actually, im not even involved in the first place. things were cool before because i kept it cool. i made a vou to myself, that i want to avoid any drama between me anyone this year. but i guess, conflicts keep chasing me..when im NOT the one who started it. why la..
i was just being nice. i was just being the carefree girl who wont give a damn about what she's doing all along. but things started to get wayy out of hand now. and i just dont know where t0 start. well, i just plan to keep it shut, until the right time strikes, until she blurt it out. so hentakla almari all you want, terbalikkanla almari ke katil ke, i dont care. you mess up with me, there's a price to pay. bagi muka panjat kepala. marahla ni kan.
damn. i reli reli reli miss my darling nieces. boleh tak, aritu i menangis sebab rindu sangat kt farah? meroyan ke ape.
later kids.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
but why am i still so very afraid? why do i keep telling myself that if i lose this shot again, i may just, lose myself. my whole life. to pick up all the broken pieces and glue them back one by one, only to watch it broken again someday is unbearable. i just cannot stand anymore, being hurt, betrayed, used.
i need someone who loves me so much he dares not do anything that could hurt me. with words especially. im so fragile, it irritates even myself.
oh, by the way.
he's a piece of art.
a masterpiece.
a quiet charm.
a smile that feels like home.
eyes that enlighten my tired days.
laugh that sings straight into my heart.
voice that soothes this bruised heart.
a bold grace with gentle gestures.
he listens, he understood.
he nods, he remembered.
he looks my way, he watched.
im crazy if i lose this guy to some other girl.
apparently already going nuts just to think of him.
selalu terjatuh berbeda aku darimu
aku serba tiada
aku kekurangan
dan bila kau tiba
aku hilang dari kewujudan
sempurnanya sifatmu
tulusnya hatimu
jujurnya niatmu
tingginya kesabaranmu
lepaskanlah diriku
kerna ku tak sanggup tuk menanggung
sebuah cinta sempurna
darimu...
Thursday, February 4, 2010
ithinktoomuchiknow.
kepala otak saya penuh dengan exams quizzes assignments presentation xde duit ptptn hutang itah rm5 mama masak ape kat rumah farah sofea rindu maksu tak serious teringin nak pegi trip dengan member2 tapi xde duit asal aku asyik semput lately aisey da naik 1kg balik setiap malam ade class boleh meninggal la macam ni penat penat penat nak gi main kat pantai or lepak2 kt tempat best cam putrajaya (?) nak tengok movie cte valentines day ade patrick dampsey kalaula dapat husband cam die teringin nak makan ice cream vanilla tapi tekak tak berapa baik lagi nak jumpa patrick star nak tanye die lahir kat mana and favourite colour die ape eh lagu cinta sempurna by yuna best glee ish teringin nak makan mix fruit dalam cup hrm nanti nak beli lipcolour baru nivea punye xbest agak2 ili marah aku tak coz xangkat die call aritu coz aku nga penat sangat time tu and cred pulak abes nak call balik ble mase nak activate youthclub ni maxis cepat cekikla asal aku rase cam dhiya da balik msia tapi tak contact aku APE MASALAH PMPUAN TU KAN macam xde orang lain je nak mintak tolong ajakan ishh aku kena open minded ckitla bukan macam mamat tu da jadi bf aku pun tapi aku SAKIT HATI okay hrm esok agak2 aku bley jawab ke tak programming ni uh eish takot malam ni nak skip halaqah tp xboleh da coz da skip 2x ish kecohla esok nak exam segala bagai ttibe malam ni study circle aku WAJIB stay up malam ni harap2 tak kong esok xsaba nak tunggu malam sabtu ni coz endos nak dtg bwk aku g makan kt ipoooohhh!
thats it.